Lost Things Series no. 4: Stuck
Stuck is the most recent drawing in the series. My friend kyle once wrote
"If being naked is happiness and wearing spandex is depression, and I’m wearing flannel where does that put me?"
For me depression would be nakedness. You are vulnerable to the outside world. You cannot protect yourself. So that’s what the figure on the right became.
Anxiety would be wearing a sweater. To hide everything. To hold everything you need in case something bad happens in the pockets. Something to keep you warm that you could take on and off when necessary. That became the figure on the left.
Stuck is about everything I’m going through right now with depression and anxiety. There are no sails on the toy ship and there are two giants blocking the tiny figure from the exit. I am unable to move and get past these giants, but I must get to the door. It will just take time. I have lost the ability to move forward for the time being.
I used myself for the reference pictures
Lost Things Series no.1 : ShipWreck
The Lost Things series is something I started last year. In this series I’ll be drawing things that we have all lost and the series focuses mostly on nostalgia. The work in this series is personal and is more important and cathartic to me than my audience. I don’t care if you like it or not. I’m doing this for me.
With that said, the concept of ShipWreck is how we long to go on adventures but can’t get out of bed in order to go on them. We used to have the ability to immerse ourselves in adventures through our minds and through games as children. That ability is altogether almost lost to us as we get older.
A recurring element in the series is a toy ship. It is meant to represent my mindset for each drawing. How moods and feelings are always drifting and changing and how I will always feel like a child.
The model who posed for reference pictures is Sigtryggr